"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
About 6 years ago, I was obsessed with Crossroads. You know, that Britney Spears movie? It's okay - you can laugh. Point is, at the beginning of the movie, these three BFFs make a box with their memories and their goals for the future, and then they bury it, and agree to open it on a special date.
So me and my two BFFS, L and M, decided we should do it too. I don't remember much of its contents, but I know for sure I put in a CD because I wanted to be the next Britney Spears. L wanted to be an actress, and M wanted to be a marine biologist. We decided that we would open it at midnight on July 4, 2008. It's been 3 weeks since that day... and we still can't find it.
When we made the box, I remember thinking about what my life would be like now. Now, looking back, I wonder if I would be disappointed. Part of me thinks I would. I guess I just thought things would be different, more figured out. By the end of the movie, Britney has a record contract, a perfect boyfriend, and is well on the road to fame and riches. I really don't have anything that compares. I'm still waiting for that text to come through and the braces to come off and for the whole world to realize how wonderful and talented I am. Perfect? Not so much. I can't even find a stupid box.
Despite all of that, I am really, really happy with who I am right now. I learn new things everyday, and I am contstantly surprised with life. I have amazing friends. I don't know what the future holds, but I see where I'm going, and I like it. So maybe the smaller, blonder version of me would be disappointed. Too bad. But she wanted me to be Britney Spears, so she didn't have much foresight, anyway.
