"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
Do you ever have really high expectations for how things will go? It can be such a let down - like when you've been anticipating your birthday party for weeks, imagining every detail of your perfect day. There is no way it can possibly match what you've dreamed up. Then the big day comes, and you're disappointed. Maybe things don't turn out bad, but they certainly didn't match what you hoped for.
Sometimes, I wish my life was more like a TV show. Then, even when bad things happened, I would kinda know what was coming, and it would all neatly wrap up in the end. Real life is a little more. . . complicated. With everything you do, there are a million ways that things can turn out. Some are good, some are bad, and some are just different then you'd expect. So the chances of things happening the way you expect? Like a million to one. The universe doesn't really play in your favor.
I have been disappointed, surprised, and thrown through quite a few loops before. And what it's made me realize is that maybe it's best to just take life as it comes. Sure, life is what you make it out to be, but it's also how you take what you are given, because you can't know what's coming for sure. It's good to have some sense of direction, to know where you want to go. But maybe, it's okay to just be where you are, right now.
There's so much - school, friends, family, boys, whatever. If you try to control it all, you'll be disappointed, because you just can't do that. And you might miss out on some great surprises if you are too focused on perfection. So just be you, and take life as it comes. No expectations, no reservations. Don't be worried or scared for what's coming - you'll be ready when it gets here. Promise.
