"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
So I have been working on this really interesting project lately. See, I'm part of this peer education group at my school, and we each have to write out our own "life story," as far as food and body drama. When we're done, we have to share them with the group. I have yet to share mine, but many girls in the group have. And when we got started, I remember looking around the group and thinking, These girls are so cool and confident. There's no way been there, or felt bad about their bodies. And I was so wrong. In fact, they had all been there, some to the far extremes. I couldn't believe it.
Then this weekend, I was having a girls' night with some FGs from my school. We were sharing silly date stories, and someone brought up first kisses. Well, I haven't had mine yet (shh!). I was trying to keep quiet, but then A turned to me and said, "What was yours like?" "Me? Oh well, you know, it. . . hasn't happened yet." And she yelled, "Oh my gosh, me neither!" Once again, I was so surprised. I thought I knew her so well. She is so outgoing, fun - everybody loves her. But there she was, hiding the same silly secret as me.
Sometimes people can catch you off guard - even when you think someone's life seems "so perfect" compared to you, they might be more like you than you think. I realized that I have been carrying all of my insecurities around like scars, as if everyone could see them. And I've let myself feel like less because of it. But you know what? I wouldn't think less of those FGs, because in spite of whatever they are still pretty darn fabulous. Don't hold yourself back, because you just might be more fab than you think.
